JAYCEE DUGARD, A STOLEN LIFE: 'I WAS A NOBODY'

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JAYCEE Duggard was so frightened for her own children, that when she went out in public she was too paralysed by fear to shout out for help.  In the first extracts from her book 'A Stolen Memoir' she described her terrifying ordeal at the hands of drug crazed pervert Phillip Garrido and his wife Nancy.  Kidnapped aged just 11, she was subjected to appalling sexual abuse from the moment the twisted couple snatched her of the street near her Lake Tahoe, CA, home. 
Forcing her into the shower with him, he raped her, before handing her a towel as she broke down. 
When she asked for her clothes back, a sneering Garrido laughed and led her into the maze of tents he'd made to keep her in, telling her hos dog would attack if she tried to escape. 
For the next three years he would rape her at least a week, in terrifying sessions when he was high on methamphetamines.
Duggard goes on to describe the terrifying fear she had after giving birth to her children without any medical assistance and only her captors helping her. 
Part of the reason for never trying to escape in 18-years, she explains, was her fear that they would abducted as she had been.
Thankfully both are now in school full time and Jaycee, who was forced to pretend to be their sister is finally enjoying motherhood.  
After eight years of captivity, Garrido took her outside for the first time after dying her hair brown in a bid to prevent her being recognized. 
She writes: "I had no voice and I didn't shout to the world "Hey, it's me, Jaycee!" even though I longed to."
"I could never shake the feeling that one day someone would say, "Hey aren't you that missing girl?" but nobody ever did. I was nobody. Nobody saw me."

Her captivity finally came to an end on August 25, 2009, when Garrido, a convicted sex offender, was ordered to bring his daughters to a parole meeting.
After questioning, Miss Dugard finally broke down and admitted she wasn't Allissa - the name they had forced to give herself - at all but after 18 years in which she hadn't said her name, she had to write it down instead.

JAYCEE DUGARD, A STOLEN LIFE: 'I PROTECTED OTHERS'

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JAYCEE Dugard didn't try to escape from the hands of her perverted kidnapper because she felt that that by staying she was preventing other children being kidnapped and raped.  
Answering the question that had puzzled people, she testified that she was determined to help others avoid creepy Phillip Garrido's sick perversions. 
The 32-year-old said: "He said he had a sex problem and that if he got me he wouldn't have to do this to anyone else. So I felt I was helping prevent this happening to anyone else, even if it was in a sick and perverted way.
Dugard, who's book 'A Stolen Life: A Memoir',  is due out soon, was snatched, when she was just 11-years-old, added that she felt trapped in Garrido's home in Antioch, east of San Fransisco, especially after giving birth to her daughters Angel, now 15, and Starlet, 13, and feared without any money she had nowhere to go.
She said: "I always felt I was a coward. I was scared of Phillip. And I did not feel like I had anywhere to run to. And, later on, I realised I had the girls and no money, and where would I go'?"
Duggard's nightmare began after she waved goodbye stepfather and walked to a bus stop, when Garrido crawled up behind her in his car and pounced with his wife Nancy.   
She said: "All of a sudden his hand shoots out of the car window and I feel this shock, I stumble back into the bushes trying to back away,"
"But my body feels all tingly and suddenly I'm in the car, in the back, on the floorboards, under a blanket and there is someone sitting on me.
"And then, as we drive on for what seems like for ever, and I am hot and my bladder has emptied, I hear this man say 'I can't believe we got away with it,' and he started laughing."
She also revealed how she pleaded with him to release her, explaining her family could not afford a ransom.
But she quickly realised he was more concerned with having a sex slave rather than earning money from his abductee.